Am I the only one who thinks dating SUCKS!?
It does, and I don't want to do it anymore. Hell, arranged marriages are sounding pretty damn good right about now. You get your match, you're stuck together and you learn to love that person and deal with it. What could possibly go wrong?
Could it be me? Is it just a horrible run of bad luck or do I just choose really, really badly?
This last let down really steams me. He doesn't want to date because I will eventually meet his little boy, who's three years old. Initially the Pagan/Witch thing didn't seem like it would be a problem, but it became a concern when he realized I would eventually meet his kid.
What. The. Fuck?
Seriously, what is he worried about? That I would sacrifice the kid? Or in some way be a bad influence? He wouldn't want his kid exposed to "Pagan things?" And the guy isn't Christian, or any sort of hard-line religious person. He could be considered equally Pagan even!
I don't know. I didn't ask. It's not worth the discussion, I figure. But it does make me take a step back and say "Wow."
Really, maybe I'm naive. I thought we lived in a country, and for New Yorkers a state, where this stuff didn't seem to be an issue any more. Ok, I get it if you live in the Bible Belt, but come on. This is New Freakin' York. Liberal homeland. Wait, that's California...
But wow, I didn't realize that Witches have such a stigma against them still. Paganism is normal to me. Most everybody I know is totally cool with me, and my path. My parents didn't bat an eye when I jumped up to participate in a Voodoo ritual at the Pagan Pride Day last weekend. It's nothing for a friend to ask me to do a cleansing for her. I'm even totally out of the "broom closet" at work. Sure, the guys joke about me casting love spells, and they're always curious about just what sort of weird stuff I do on Halloween, but they'd never hold my religion against me. Maybe I just lulled myself into thinking that the whole world is as tolerant as most of the people around me.
It really does sort of throw me. Not this one particular guy or this situation per se, but what it represents. I feel like I've walked into a brick wall that was there the entire time and I was oblivious. I'm really having a hard time wrapping my brain around the idea that people still fear us, or are skeptical of trusting us, or whatever...
My paradigm has been totally turned on end. My bubble has been burst. A total "Whoa" moment.
There's nothing I can do really but carry on and hope for better luck next time.