Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Friday, January 22, 2010
Posted by Diana Renata
Sometimes life has a way of really getting you down. You think when you can't take any more it throws another one at you. When you think your budget can't take any more stress, there life is, with one more bill. It's times like these when really all you can do is throw your hands up and say "Uncle!"
I've been going through a bit of a rough patch lately. I work a regular daytime job that I'm not sure I can say I love but I certainly do like it. I like my work, I like the people (for the most part,) my schedule is pretty good and the pay is... adequate. Because the pay is adequate, but not as much as I need, I found myself taking on a second job. I loved it initially, and in many ways I still like it, but I think its season has passed. This leaves me in a somewhat precarious position with debts to pay off and a skin-of-my-teeth budget should I quit. My weight and my emotional wellbeing, however, will continue to be troublesome if I don't quit. It's truly a case of happiness versus money right now.
It's not very often that I really say that I'm "depressed." Right now, I believe I am, and have been for a few weeks. It wasn't until today that I decided to accept it as reality. Not being one who is good at embracing my emotions, this is good practice. So not knowing what to do with myself, I went looking for inspiration and affirmation, turning to my faith (what little there seems to be these days) and knowing that the gods will provide direction and abundance... somehow.
It's time to get my mind right, so after drowning my sadness and fear in a peanutbutter cup sundae for dinner, I made myself some spicy Xocolatl hot chocolate with coconut milk, lit a cozy fire, and went rummaging through my piles and stacks of "stuff." You know, all those papers, books, notebooks and other bits of information that "might be useful someday." In it, I came across the following...